Sentimental...

I am such a sentimental fool. I wonder why I find it so hard to let go off the things that have made me really happy? Why is it that instead of remembering these times with a huge smile on my face, I always want to cry and stomp my foot like a three year old, demanding to have these times back? I really don't get it...
Today's sentimentality fit came from listening to the Missa Solemnis. Sometimes I wish I'd gotten to perform this a million times until I was truly sick and tired of it and would never want to hear it ever again.
It's easier to hate than to love. That much I know.