Some things...

... DO work out eventually.
Like the job I applied for in my company. I talked to the HR person from the US yesterday and she told me that they want to take this further - which is pretty much the go ahead for my move to the US.
Now, don't get all excited cause I didn't. I know better than that. I had a job in the States before and the whole Visa thing didn't work out. So I'm a bit further this time, what with having an almost degree PLUS almost 5 years work experience but still - things can go wrong. They can tell me they don't want me in the country.
So, whilst this may all be very exciting, it could also go wrong. But it's nice to know that the IT department over there has enough faith in me to want me.
As far as I can see, getting to the US is a lot less exciting for me today than it was even a year ago. Call it road weary or just weary, I don't know. I suppose I've just wanted this for such a long time that finally getting the chance to go is like an anti-climax.

Either way - I've got both eventualities planned out. If I do move - fantastic. Time to start that new life I've been wanting to start for such a long time. If I don't move, well, what the heck. I've got my choir, I've got my music, I've got my writing... it's all good here. Not fantastic but good. And that's a huge improvement for me. And if things don't work out, I'm definitely leaving the company. Because if there is one negative element left in my life, it is the EMEA part of this company. I cannot wait to see the back of it! The amount of energy this takes out of me on a daily basis is incredible and totally unnecessary. So it'll be the end of that.

But in the end... I'll take it as it comes, I suppose. See what works out and what doesn't. Suffice it to say though - if it DOES work out, I'm moving in less than two months. Suddenly time is going by so quickly! :-)