Rock bottom

I would like to say I'm speechless but I'm not. Everything but that. I cannot count the amount of times I have cussed and sworn today. I am so full of hate and anger and rage and disappointment that I digust myself. I don't want to know this person that is currently inhabiting my body because it's the kind of person I personally despise. I want to cry but what's the point? There's nobody here to make me feel better, to hug me and tell me everything will be ok. I'm on my own.

Things have been getting worse at work daily. This isn't just making things up, being a drama queen or over reacting. This is REAL.
Today, my manager actually THREATENED me. As ridiculous as this may sound, he did it.
The new so-called team leader could not deal with me (pathetic looser is being hated by every single person in the team) so he went crying to our manager. Who in turn used what means the most to me to threaten me.

See, I have applied for a position in the US office. It would finally mean the realization of the dream I've worked for the past 13 years of my life. I've always worn my heart on my my sleeve about that dream. I don't think there's anyone that knows me and doesn't associate this dream with me, me with this dream. We're one.
And because he is no good at his job, my manager chose to "remind" me that I had applied for this job and that he could make it all burst like a bubble if I continued disregarding the team leader's "orders".

The problem is just so complex and so long that it's not worth explaining it all here. I sure as hell can't be bothered to write it all down.

All I know is that I have never in my life felt so much hate towards two people. I know tomorrow things will be different, I know I'll eventually calm down but at the moment it burns my eyes, my throat, my skin. Every fibre of my being is pure anger. I shake with the rage of it all and I want to hurt those two people physically so badly that I make myself ill.

And at this point, I wonder if I still want to work for a company that allows such tactics to be used and such despicable human beings to be employed...